https://audiu.net/projects/perplex-odeonAwesome! this is my Submission, there should be a small icon to download it, if that doesn't work I'll just email you the file.
This means a lot to me because mental health has been the main cause of me not being productive.
Drugs (DXM, Weed, Benadryl, Fly Agaric, LSA)mixed in with digestive problem have brought me anxiety and paranoia, something I've never actually had before in my life, I think its mostly the digestive problems it started showing up at the same time these started.
It usually goes like this: Im just at my computer chilling or walking around when suddenly I just get this feeling that something is not right, something's off, which follows up with me just getting scared for absolutely no reason, objects seem aggressive and I get this intense impression of deja vue, so intense its made me believe that my life is a loop and that even death isn't an escape.
(now thats a healthy mindset!!) The more I get these deja vue the more I think Im going to die in the upcoming days.
These lead me to waking up every morning thinking "is this it, is today the day im having a psychotic breakdown?"
its 1 month left until my birthday and t'ill im moving out of town in a village, I have this weird feeling im not gonna make it and it bugs me the hell out. (I will update on my birthday after the 21 of june! If I don't for some weird reason then know that I've predicted it and that im a fucking badass, if not then call me stupid and I'll take it with a smile!)
The song name comes from "Cineplex Odeon" its a cinema. Its a reference to my last usage of drug 4 months ago, I had taken a edible and went with friends to watch black panther at the local cinema, I was so scared in there that It felt like my consciousness just dug into my brain and hid itself in there, it felt like I was hiding inside of my brain, thats how scared I felt even though that doesn't make a lot of sense
I don't even remember anything from the movie, all I remember is that I was too high to open the little bag with the 3D glasses and that when I finally got the courage to go to the bathroom after an hour and a half into the movie, I came back and stepped on my popcorn and somehow found the bag with the glasses opened???
But I've stopped smoking weed and told myself that if im sane enough to think im insane and actually know that what im having are delusions, then im not that insane
Anyway feels good to talk, thanks for reading!