Wed Oct 05, 2016 3:21 am
2020k wrote:when I hit my head my vision was knocked out for around three seconds. Everything went black & starry, then it came back and my head hurt where I hit but beyond that I was fine. I didn't even lose consciousness.
2020k wrote:I was at work, in my little cubicle
2020k wrote:I just kept feeling like I was falling (you know the feeling right before bed, in your chest
2020k wrote:ER told me I was just "near fainting" and sent me home with an outrageous medical bill.
Thu Oct 06, 2016 12:00 am
Sun Oct 09, 2016 3:31 am
2020k wrote:
My cute pink cube. (just kidding)!
I've only been to the hospital two times, both as a child as well & oh, boy. Health care cost in the United States is definitely interesting, to say the least.
Today's interesting. I keep going in and out of focus. Several times an hour I feel like a very semi-normal version me for a while, then I feel like full blown concussion me. I'm hesitantly taking it as a sign of getting better.
Sun Oct 09, 2016 1:23 pm
Sun Oct 09, 2016 11:21 pm
Sat Nov 04, 2017 6:45 pm
Sun Nov 05, 2017 5:57 am
Aerial Boundaries wrote:haven't been on in a while, mostly because I don't feel accepted or liked anywhere, and also because my hearing is so fucked that I can't bear to listen to most music. I'm very much alone now, I might kill myself. Probably not, but, I might. I feel like it a lot.
Sun Nov 05, 2017 2:42 pm
Aerial Boundaries wrote:haven't been on in a while, mostly because I don't feel accepted or liked anywhere, and also because my hearing is so fucked that I can't bear to listen to most music. I'm very much alone now, I might kill myself. Probably not, but, I might. I feel like it a lot.
Mon Nov 06, 2017 11:54 am
Aerial Boundaries wrote:haven't been on in a while, mostly because I don't feel accepted or liked anywhere, and also because my hearing is so fucked that I can't bear to listen to most music. I'm very much alone now, I might kill myself. Probably not, but, I might. I feel like it a lot.
Tue Nov 07, 2017 1:34 pm
Aerial Boundaries wrote:haven't been on in a while, mostly because I don't feel accepted or liked anywhere, and also because my hearing is so fucked that I can't bear to listen to most music. I'm very much alone now, I might kill myself. Probably not, but, I might. I feel like it a lot.
Wed Nov 08, 2017 6:28 pm
Aerial Boundaries wrote:haven't been on in a while, mostly because I don't feel accepted or liked anywhere, and also because my hearing is so fucked that I can't bear to listen to most music. I'm very much alone now, I might kill myself. Probably not, but, I might. I feel like it a lot.
Thu Nov 09, 2017 12:58 pm
Thu Nov 09, 2017 8:26 pm
Sun Nov 12, 2017 5:05 am
2020k wrote:Well, nothing now!
Fri Nov 17, 2017 4:38 am
Aerial Boundaries wrote:haven't been on in a while, mostly because I don't feel accepted or liked anywhere, and also because my hearing is so fucked that I can't bear to listen to most music. I'm very much alone now, I might kill myself. Probably not, but, I might. I feel like it a lot.
Fri Nov 17, 2017 5:20 am
"This mount is such, that ever
At the beginning down below 'tis tiresome,
And aye the more one climbs, the less it hurts."
Mon Sep 06, 2021 12:30 pm
Mon Sep 06, 2021 1:46 pm
rodox_head wrote:I apologize in advance for drudging this topic up.
Every weekend feels like purgatory, I can't even pretend to look forward to them while at work. I'm asleep from noon to midnight and then stuck with a deafening silence outside my window all night. My neighborhood feels like a portion of a 3d era GTA map, half the shopping strips are deserted save for a couple gas stations and religious centers.
I hate that my job has become all I am at this point,
I hate my velcro covered face,
I hate that I have to push one side of myself away from the public eye to the point of an internal schism,
I hate that the other side has to be reminded of how his childhood dream is chipping away day by day like an old porcelain doll,
I hate the feeling that my art isn't "integrating the shadow" but just showing how messed up I am in the head
I hate how my interests alienate me from everyone because who cares about art, philosophy, and weird music these days
I hate the objectification of humanity
I hate barely knowing who I am whilst everyone else clings to identifiers
I hate being told that therapy is the only option when all I want is to talk to someone like a real person
And I hate that I left this wonderful understanding place for seven years for two different boards that have bit the dust, one of them full of great people, whilst the other full of hateful rhetoric that only reminds me of the bed that I have made for myself. Seriously, when I think back on how I was back in 2010-2013 I'm surprised any of you put up with me, provided others that were here then are still here.
Mon Sep 06, 2021 3:09 pm
Tue Sep 07, 2021 2:34 am
Orbited insanitarium wrote:Please don’t put yourself down, after having back and forth conversations on the Aspergers and the autistic spectrum thread I can tell that you are a nice person and we have some things in common, I’ve felt like through these replies and posts I’ve come feel a sense of connection with you as a user. Even though the communication on this forum is virtually based, there are people here that over the past 1-2 years as an lurker, have made me time and time again want to sign up. I’m not going to say it will get better as life with it’s ups and downs is wishful thinking, but as a member of this forum, i may not know you personally and I won’t judge. But just to let you know that whatever your going through, I’m here to talk. PM me anytime you like and I’ll strike up a conversation. And I hope that the twoism community as a whole will be understanding with their posts towards you. Your personality (to me) is meant well just know that if the people around you are putting you down, we are here.
PM me anytime Rodox, regards - richard
arvy wrote:Time heals everything. I remember many years before I had probably my first real depression. Now this feelings come natural and very real. You cannot escape sadness, this is a part of you. You have to learn walk along the dark side. Time heals everything.