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Waterbagel wrote:Today I had to say goodbye to my best friend.
He's only gone off to Notre Dame for his PhD, so I've not much to complain about.. I'm filled with pride and happiness for him, but to know that he left today has left the world with that orange hue you see outside as a child as the sun sets, knowing that it will soon be time for bed.
I mowed his lawn that he'd never done, I picked up some of the stuff in his apartment for his landlord's sake, and I took with me a small nightstand and a red lamp that he'd left behind. I'll put them next to my bed. There was a little black journal off to the side of his spare room, and I picked through it a bit until I realized that it was his thoughts on paper. It's still on that nightstand.. I might read through it some other day.
I know the internet exists, and I know that we'll all drive up to see him, and I'm sure he'll come down himself. Maybe it's the fact that he's been my best friend through college and, now that we've all graduated, him leaving really sets the tone that that period of my life is over. A new era begins soon, but I really did like this one.
It's weird to stand alone in a house that you know you'll never be in again.
Witto wrote:It feels weird to know that he's not right next door and I can't go over to ask him to go out on nights like these. We definitely got much closer as we progressed through highschool.
Syberia wrote:
I think it was for the best yet I'm so scared that I will and up lonely and unhappy without him.
I don't know what to do, what I want to do and who to be.
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I think I will have a long journey ahead of me, trying to understand who I am and what I want and expect in my life.
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I know things will be okay some day...But at the moment it really sucks...
Waterbagel wrote:Syberia wrote:
I think it was for the best yet I'm so scared that I will and up lonely and unhappy without him.
I don't know what to do, what I want to do and who to be.
...
I think I will have a long journey ahead of me, trying to understand who I am and what I want and expect in my life.
...
I know things will be okay some day...But at the moment it really sucks...
If it's any consolation, you are not the only one right now.
Syberia wrote:Thanks. I'm sorry for being so dramatic...I know people go through much worse things than this.
I'm really sorry about your friend moving away. It sucks when things change even if you are not ready for them to change.
Najlepsiejszy wrote:How do people accept themselves? How can they go through life happy with themselves? I don't remember feeling that way, I'm a fucking failure
sorry I had to vent a little
Cupz wrote:I just pretend I'm awesome so hard I start to believe it.
Be who you'd like to be, men!
Cupz wrote:I just pretend I'm awesome so hard I start to believe it.
Be who you'd like to be, men!
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