NorthSaturnian wrote:i feel so weak, and nothing interests me anymore. how do i get over this? would appreciate to hear some stories of recovery. i feel trapped.
The fact that you want to get over it implies you see it as an obstacle and causes it to persist. Even though it is honest and understandable that is not the way and causes your suffering. There is a deep truth to these feelings and they are only here to help you divert your attention away from experience towards your peaceful Being that you already are (unknowingly).
Just sit with those feelings of weakness and/or boredom or whatever it is and just allow it to be. Just say: "I surrender to my experience" and really mean it and connect with it. It's all about not fighting Life. Life can take on any form, including the feeling of weakness and boredom. It might be uncomfortable and we want to get away from those experiences but they are just as pure as the more desirable feelings. You can't split Life into two categories.
The 'I' that experiences "negative" feelings or thoughts is the same 'I' that experiences the opposite "positive" ones. Therein lies the liberation from all experience, from the world.
The reason you feel trapped is because you are identified with your mind, thinking. What you are (awareness) is always already free from any experience. See that all experience (including thoughts) comes and goes, only you as the 'I' Awareness is always here and now. It never began and therefore cannot end. It sees everything come and go. That is inner peace.
