Burial fukken rocks.
And last night I was enlightened to so many things.
I discovered how to actually enjoy myself when I'm SUPER high, tripping the fuck out, finally discovered how to turn a bad trip into a good trip :] it's like the intensity that the bad trip was, only entirely positive. It started out really bad though, thought I was dying for stupid reasons, once I started enjoying myself it felt so good and stayed that way :B
I remember some subtle hallucinations but nothing too intense like last time, though I felt like I was as high as I was last time but that was just fear and anticipation of having as bad of a trip as last time. The sky was dark and the static that forms around your vision when you stare for awhile make everything look like it had JPEG artifacts, and they started swirling and spinning.
There were reflections of these lights in the lake we were sitting in front of, and with the subtle ripples in the water distorting the light's reflection and after staring for awhile they started making strange animations like volcanoes erupting and breaking down into pixels... it was really cool. The walk home from the lake felt like infinity but it was alright, my friends kept reminding us that we had iced tea and chips that sounded SO good to me eheheh.
A really significant moment was discovering the base of creativity within me... I saw a scene of the sky over some trees and all of a sudden I felt like I understood everything about that particular scene, and if I had a canvas I'd have been able to paint an exact replica, it looked so vivid. And my friends wanted me to see if I could draw anime cuz I'd never drawn it before, and I remembered this one character and I could see it projected in front of me, so I started tracing it with my hand and there was a trail of JPEG artifacts following where I was drawing with my hand that lasted a good 20 seconds or so, so I started drawing with it and I drew so much stuff, eventually I just started swirling my hands around and the trails were giving off these sparks and energy and it felt so good.
Something really cool and dumb happened too, when we were sitting I started shivering a bit and then I thought it was really cold so I was shivering pretty good. My friends kinda got closer on the bench to hide from the cold wind for a bit then out of nowhere they go away and it was like it was never cold. I could translate the feeling of cold into really hot. It was so cool, it felt HOT. Like when you feel something so cold that you can imagine the pain of that coldness in heat, like it's really burning hot, it was being able to do that but at lower temperatures. So cool/hot :B
Very cool....... I'm finally able to have a good time I think. Now I know how important a good mindset is. Every subtle bodily action is amplified SO much that if you feel the slightest bit negative it'll grow and dig a pit of negativity and you don't feel like you can get out of it... I guess that's what a bad trip is!!!! Luckily I was able to get out of it unlike last time
