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[Ashtray Wasp]

Not liking the high of nicotine anymore, makes me go suicidal, thanks to prozac I guess

On a sidenote and completely unrelated, I fucking love this place and all of you, is one of the few sweet and welcoming places left in the internet

Peace out

I love you. Please stop taking prozac. Even heroin is less damaging to your brain for goodness sake.
If they need to prescribe you an ssri say you have a bad reaction to prozac so they can get you an unfluoridated compound like sertraline etc. God knows I lost my childhood and spent a year or more trying to get it back from the residual debris prozac leaves.

Nicotine is nice in moderation but you don't want to smoke quantity. It stops acting as a sedative at higher doses and more as a stimulant.

I have not yet felt any better and I have been taking it for two months and a half, I'll go see the psichiatrist on Wednesday, so I'll tell her that I don't like the effect it gives me, becouse if I tell her that it doesn't work, she'll give me more, and the only thing that is really working right now is hash (weed is almost impossible to get here), although the day after smoking it I sometimes get small anxiety attacks, but also for that I take Lexatin, for the anxiety, as a sleep pill, but as I take it before going to sleep I don't really care about what it does as I don't feel anything

[Cupz]

Hash (bi-daily), nicotine(constantly), shroom (2x a year) and alcohol (daily) is pretty much my remedy for the past few months. Art school is rough. It sure beats whatever uppers or downers you could throw at anyone though. I've been on anti-depressants, anti-psychotic and other "mood stabalizers" but the previously mentioned medication works like a motherfucker. A little rough around the edges but it works. Highly recommended! Tell that psychopath to shove it and find a profesional/badassgenious to TALK TO, not recieve medications from.

[Ashtray Wasp]

Hash, nicotine, shroom and alcohol is pretty much my remedy for the past few months. Art school is rough. It sure beats whatever uppers or downers you could throw at anyone though. I've been on anti-depressants, anti-psychotic and other "mood stabalizers" but the previously medication works like a motherfucker. Highly recommended! Tell that psychopath to shove it and find a profesional/badassgenious to TALK TO, not recieve medications from.

My only close friends are all awat forever, three of them studying in Emgland, and the other one studying in Barcelona, and my gf doesn't count, as I have as sort of a different type of relationship, not like a good friendship is, I do feel lonely

[Cupz]

If you allow me to be frank and dear God please don't get offended as what helped me a lot back in the day was someone being painfully frank, I'd like to say the following and I'm basing this off just a few lines of post of yours so bear with me.

If you aren't happy with a girlfriend, why keep it?
If the meds aint cutting it, why keep taking them?
If your friends are all away, who will be your friend?

To me it seems your girlfriend is keeping you from being social. I've been there. No shame, trust me. If it aint exactly what you want, screw it and let it go.
To me it seems the meds seem to make you unhappy. Stop taking them, take vitamins (especially b12) for a while to recover from the side-effects instead. Think about joy and dismiss negative thought.
To me it seems you need more people around you. Go out. Even the most stupid places have interesting people walking around, just as lost as you are. Some of them know a lot more about shit then you do. I didn't expect that either.
To me it seems the feeling you have is universal and you should keep up, keep your head straight and laugh your ass off.

And again. PRETEND! Pretend you're the most bad-ass motherfucker on the planet. Pretend you saved mars by activating a ancient alien machine that melts the ice inside the crust and produces breathable air. Believe it. All work and no play sure makes jack a dull fucking boy.

Lately I've been training my "Drive" coolness. You know, pose around like a bad-ass with a toothpick in your mouth and not saying a whole lot. Its really releasing its metaphysical fruits. (If you don't know what I'm talking about, watch the movie Drive)
But I'm not stopping there, I'm adding layers and layers of other coolness. To be "real" I probably look like an idiot, but that doesn't matter. I'm fucking cool in my head. And if I keep it up for 10.000 hours Imma be really good at it and be THAT AWESOME.

[Ashtray Wasp]

If you allow me to be frank and dear God please don't get offended as what helped me a lot back in the day was someone being painfully frank, I'd like to say the following and I'm basing this off just a few lines of post of yours so bear with me.

If you aren't happy with a girlfriend, why keep it?
If the meds aint cutting it, why keep taking them?
If your friends are all away, who will be your friend?

To me it seems your girlfriend is keeping you from being social. I've been there. No shame, trust me. If it aint exactly what you want, screw it and let it go.
To me it seems the meds seem to make you unhappy. Stop taking them, take vitamins (especially b12) for a while to recover from the side-effects instead. Think about joy and dismiss negative thought.
To me it seems you need more people around you. Go out. Even the most stupid places have interesting people walking around, just as lost as you are. I didn't expect that either.
To me it seems the feeling you have is universal and you should keep up, keep your head straight and laugh your ass off.

And again. PRETEND! Pretend you're the most bad-ass motherfucker on the planet. Pretend you saved mars by activating a ancient alien machine that melts the ice inside the crust and produces breathable air. Believe it. All work and no play sure makes jack a dull fucking boy.

Lately I've been training my "Drive" coolness. You know, pose around like a bad-ass with a toothpick in your mouth and not saying a whole lot. Its really releasing its metaphysical fruits. (If you don't know what I'm talking about, watch the movie Drive)
But I'm not stopping there, I'm adding layers and layers of other coolness. To be "real" I probably look like an idiot, but that doesn't matter. I'm fucking cool in my head. And if I keep it up for 10.000 hours Imma be really good at it and be THAT AWESOME.

I have a better relationship with my girlfriend now than in the past, so that doesn't really matter, but I will stop taking the meds, and I will go out and be awesome, I'm willing to try anything, although I've sort of pretending I'm awesome since I was a kid

Thanks for the help

[Cupz]

I've sort of pretending I'm awesome since I was a kid

We all have. You just have to keep that going.

yw

-Cupz out-



ps: I'm high as a kite. These posts still need to be here.

[Valotonin]

It is the fact that music and indeed
most multimedia has transformed from something physical
and tangible, something you can hold and physically
manipulate, in to something that seems to be of the ether
something that is reconstituted as data and shown to you
as pixels on a monitor that only deals in ones and zeroes
has lead to the mass homogenisation of production and
the inevitable decline of music. There are no human inbetweens
when it comes to binary. It is this or that but everything in
between is either simulated or non existent. That's just it.
It is the illusion of music and not music its self.
What some in the studio refer to as 'polishing' a sound, I refer
to as homogenisation and depersonalisation of a sound.
I know many people whose excuse for creating and producing
music through a computer designed to encorporate many
uses in to one is a lack of funds. At the exact same time I
see disgaurded tape decks and reel to reels lying deep within
the electronics refuse bin at my local recycling plant and have
to talk myself out of going back the same night with a fishing rod
to claim it from its demise. If you look for something you
will find it. And if you don't you will probably find it by accident.
The world is still a much bigger and mysterious place than
they would have you believe.

[Valotonin]

I was pretty high last night, kids.

[Jonse]

HOLY SHIT is being polite or being blunt a huge struggle. I can only choose one and half the time neither is an appropriate choice.

I am going crazy or something.

[re-phaelam-ed]

for those who are posting high....to watch

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[Aerial Boundaries]

Fuuuuuck

[Ashtray Wasp]

I'm finally stopping to take prozac, but these weeks I've trough stress and I don't know how to cope with it, it's like a heavy weigth on my mind, that doesn't let me enjoy anything, and I only want to take drugs, but I promised my girlfriend not to do it again, that she was going to help me get through this, but she doesn't help in any way, and it's noy her fault, I just feel so lonely sometimes, I don't know how I'm going to get through this last year of school, it's going to be the hardest one yet, and I'm starting to not feel anything as I used to, I have never seen myself living more than 30 year anyways, so might end it someday, but I want to try new things as well, it's really confusing, and listening to Death Grips and Balck Flag non stop doens't help with the mood, but there is nothing else I want to listen to

[Valotonin]

I'm finally stopping to take prozac, but these weeks I've trough stress and I don't know how to cope with it, it's like a heavy weigth on my mind, that doesn't let me enjoy anything, and I only want to take drugs, but I promised my girlfriend not to do it again, that she was going to help me get through this, but she doesn't help in any way, and it's noy her fault, I just feel so lonely sometimes, I don't know how I'm going to get through this last year of school, it's going to be the hardest one yet, and I'm starting to not feel anything as I used to, I have never seen myself living more than 30 year anyways, so might end it someday, but I want to try new things as well, it's really confusing, and listening to Death Grips and Balck Flag non stop doens't help with the mood, but there is nothing else I want to listen to

It sounds like you fell in to the trap of seeing reality as cold, sharp and literal (both visually and metaphorically).
Keep asking yourself questions. Why do I feel this way? When did it start? What triggered it?. If you keep relentlessly asking questions you will find the answer to anything you wish to know.
If it comes down to a situation in which someone has hurt you ask yourself why they would do something like that. The answer in a lot of cases is mental illness. When one starts viewing those that are written off as evil as victims they start to attain 'jesus level' understanding maybe. I rambled again. You sound exactly like me when I was 16-17 I was on the same meds and in a similar situation from what you have disclosed. The impact you can have can and will be positive if you get past a few mental barriers.

[Jonse]

Lodging at the elusive Gigantic Table 114 lounge has never been cheaper!

[Valotonin]

I gone done and made me an advert exploiting the fears of the masses for money -satan

https://youtu.be/hg_fpFyynKc

In all seriousness all you have to do is apply the 'satanic scale' of music to anything and it becomes a ballad to satan.

[Valotonin]

(Doesn't get properly satanic until about half way through)

[Aerial Boundaries]

Haha Val that's brilliant. I tend to find that muting the sound on adverts takes away the 'veil of benevolence', and they suddenly reveal themselves as completely psychotic.

[Valotonin]

Haha Val that's brilliant. I tend to find that muting the sound on adverts takes away the 'veil of benevolence', and they suddenly reveal themselves as completely psychotic.

Cheers Aerial !
It was just thrown together really. Copied and pasted the soundtrack/ dialogue over its self in a diminished fifth scale and an octave lower for little bits of Satan.

It does indeed. There is something hypnotic (and not in a good way) about the soundtrack to most advertisements these days. They have been polished and manipulated to the extent one wouldn't be able to tell the difference if the voice was artificial. Something about television in the past five years in particular seems to be trying to manipulate you on less than conscious levels. Anyone can see it if they think about it. I am glad I'm not the only one.
Luckily we still have a choice and televisions still have off buttons. For now.

[valleaux]

for those who are posting high....to watch

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Oh my. I'm very glad that exists.

[Jonse]

Man, I sure would love to be able to blame prozac for why I'm so fucked up and genuinely make myself believe it. Would probably ease everything up by about a thousand.