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Cupz wrote:I just love this Adlib-FM vst I found. I looked for it for quite some time becouse THATS the sound I grew up with.


could you possibly send that to me sometime? I'm curious.


here you go!

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spring has sprung, it's sun-showering outside, the snow is melting, and people are outside just milling around not wearing jackets. it's amazing, it was below 0 just a few days ago looking like the frozen tundra.

although my dad just got taken to urgent care for something a few minutes ago and my grandma is dying (i think). so i dunno. things happen.
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i just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. this is a weird feeling, im not enjoying it. why are women always so cold? i never hear about girls getting dumped like this. anyone ever have any similar experiences like this? i guess everyone has at one point in their life, maybe.
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Most women, especially young ones, are totally immature and ruled by their emotions. It's not even a stereotype.
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Joebot Kill wrote:i just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. this is a weird feeling, im not enjoying it. why are women always so cold? i never hear about girls getting dumped like this. anyone ever have any similar experiences like this? i guess everyone has at one point in their life, maybe.


when their callusness bares its ugly head it is not a nice sight. there were times when i thought my ex-girlfriend was the wicked witch of the east's wand.

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I'm high and imagining the day when I come here and in the BoC forum there's a thread exclaiming the release date of a new album. IT SEEMS SO REAL

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Joebot Kill wrote:i just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. this is a weird feeling, im not enjoying it. why are women always so cold? i never hear about girls getting dumped like this. anyone ever have any similar experiences like this? i guess everyone has at one point in their life, maybe.


when their callusness bares its ugly head it is not a nice sight. there were times when i thought my ex-girlfriend was the wicked witch of the east's wand.


I can relate. Men and women can both show a lack of tenderness when it's needed most, if that's any consolation. I think I know what you're going through, I was completely head over heels for a girl once who suddenly switched on the callousness and dumped me - it's very disconcerting, it feels like being tricked almost - like getting lured into some predator's trap with affection and trust, then disposed of.

It's not fun, but there is always a bright side. I learned a lot from that experience, plus when I finally started to emerge from the depression I had been in since the breakup, was when I first discovered BoC. In that transitional period between "everything sucks and I'm sad and want to die" and "well here we are a year or two later and i'm still alive, it seems life goes on, let's take a look back at it all". Those first times I ever started to look back over my past (I was too emotionally disturbed to look at any of it until then) I got that bittersweet, melancholic, tinged with a hint of ire feeling that seemed to resonate so perfectly with MHtRtC.

That's interesting, too, I think. Maybe this isn't the same for everyone, but for me, there are the usual sensations of "it's gone forever, oh no" and "how sweet but how sad", but then there's also a little bitty voice somewhere in the back that pipes up and says "good fucking riddance! i didn't need that shit anyway!" I guess that's a byproduct of the unhappier times of my childhood. Nobody's childhood was all fun and games and super 8 birthday party footage; let's face it, there were times as a child i felt the whole world was against me and that humanity was ugly and cruel. As a geeky little dweeb who picked his nose and cried a lot, I nurtured a reciprocal hatred for people as they showed me more and more of their scorn. I'm just happy I didn't wind up letting it dominate me in the end - but I can never erase it completely from my personality, I guess.
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ross adey wrote:
Joebot Kill wrote:i just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. this is a weird feeling, im not enjoying it. why are women always so cold? i never hear about girls getting dumped like this. anyone ever have any similar experiences like this? i guess everyone has at one point in their life, maybe.


when their callusness bares its ugly head it is not a nice sight. there were times when i thought my ex-girlfriend was the wicked witch of the east's wand.


I can relate. Men and women can both show a lack of tenderness when it's needed most, if that's any consolation. I think I know what you're going through, I was completely head over heels for a girl once who suddenly switched on the callousness and dumped me - it's very disconcerting, it feels like being tricked almost - like getting lured into some predator's trap with affection and trust, then disposed of.

It's not fun, but there is always a bright side. I learned a lot from that experience, plus when I finally started to emerge from the depression I had been in since the breakup, was when I first discovered BoC. In that transitional period between "everything sucks and I'm sad and want to die" and "well here we are a year or two later and i'm still alive, it seems life goes on, let's take a look back at it all". Those first times I ever started to look back over my past (I was too emotionally disturbed to look at any of it until then) I got that bittersweet, melancholic, tinged with a hint of ire feeling that seemed to resonate so perfectly with MHtRtC.

That's interesting, too, I think. Maybe this isn't the same for everyone, but for me, there are the usual sensations of "it's gone forever, oh no" and "how sweet but how sad", but then there's also a little bitty voice somewhere in the back that pipes up and says "good fucking riddance! i didn't need that shit anyway!" I guess that's a byproduct of the unhappier times of my childhood. Nobody's childhood was all fun and games and super 8 birthday party footage; let's face it, there were times as a child i felt the whole world was against me and that humanity was ugly and cruel. As a geeky little dweeb who picked his nose and cried a lot, I nurtured a reciprocal hatred for people as they showed me more and more of their scorn. I'm just happy I didn't wind up letting it dominate me in the end - but I can never erase it completely from my personality, I guess.


good post. my girlfriend of 3 years recently broke up with me. i felt so cheated. i spent the past 6 months supporting her and her 6 year old brother as her mother was in hospital after suffering from a stroke. we both started university in different places, i became depressed...turned to my gf for the first time, and she wasn't there. that once...when i needed her most. but yeah, on the positive...i'm slowly getting there, i'm almost done on my first album...and i have freedom. but i still miss the old her. fucking relationships...end of ramble! x

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turquoise70 wrote:
ross adey wrote:
Joebot Kill wrote:i just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. this is a weird feeling, im not enjoying it. why are women always so cold? i never hear about girls getting dumped like this. anyone ever have any similar experiences like this? i guess everyone has at one point in their life, maybe.


when their callusness bares its ugly head it is not a nice sight. there were times when i thought my ex-girlfriend was the wicked witch of the east's wand.


I can relate. Men and women can both show a lack of tenderness when it's needed most, if that's any consolation. I think I know what you're going through, I was completely head over heels for a girl once who suddenly switched on the callousness and dumped me - it's very disconcerting, it feels like being tricked almost - like getting lured into some predator's trap with affection and trust, then disposed of.

It's not fun, but there is always a bright side. I learned a lot from that experience, plus when I finally started to emerge from the depression I had been in since the breakup, was when I first discovered BoC. In that transitional period between "everything sucks and I'm sad and want to die" and "well here we are a year or two later and i'm still alive, it seems life goes on, let's take a look back at it all". Those first times I ever started to look back over my past (I was too emotionally disturbed to look at any of it until then) I got that bittersweet, melancholic, tinged with a hint of ire feeling that seemed to resonate so perfectly with MHtRtC.

That's interesting, too, I think. Maybe this isn't the same for everyone, but for me, there are the usual sensations of "it's gone forever, oh no" and "how sweet but how sad", but then there's also a little bitty voice somewhere in the back that pipes up and says "good fucking riddance! i didn't need that shit anyway!" I guess that's a byproduct of the unhappier times of my childhood. Nobody's childhood was all fun and games and super 8 birthday party footage; let's face it, there were times as a child i felt the whole world was against me and that humanity was ugly and cruel. As a geeky little dweeb who picked his nose and cried a lot, I nurtured a reciprocal hatred for people as they showed me more and more of their scorn. I'm just happy I didn't wind up letting it dominate me in the end - but I can never erase it completely from my personality, I guess.


good post. my girlfriend of 3 years recently broke up with me. i felt so cheated. i spent the past 6 months supporting her and her 6 year old brother as her mother was in hospital after suffering from a stroke. we both started university in different places, i became depressed...turned to my gf for the first time, and she wasn't there. that once...when i needed her most. but yeah, on the positive...i'm slowly getting there, i'm almost done on my first album...and i have freedom. but i still miss the old her. fucking relationships...end of ramble! x


you guys are really cool. its so nice to know that there are people out there that can relate. the same sort of thing happened to me, bleak. we both went to college a couple of hours apart, and we just started to drift into different places. as i became more and more involved in music and art, she became more involved with starbucks and shopping. maybe it is for the best that things happened the way they did.

it started when i brought this up to her. i asked her if she felt like things were drifting apart, she said "no i didnt notice" and we said we could work through this. and a few days later i get a call "i was thinking about what you said. i think we should break up"

really? i thought we agreed that we would work it out. she doesnt really want to talk any more from that point on.

either way, im free now, and its a weird feeling to be single for the first time in 4 years. i have been with her since i was 18. but maybe its time i moved on to the next step in my life. but really, thanks guys. its seriously comforting to know that i can come to this message board where people are united simply by the love of a certain band, yet i can come here and talk about something like a breakup and people will have the same experiences to share. you guys are good people.
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Joebot Kill wrote:
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turquoise70 wrote:
ross adey wrote:
Joebot Kill wrote:i just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. this is a weird feeling, im not enjoying it. why are women always so cold? i never hear about girls getting dumped like this. anyone ever have any similar experiences like this? i guess everyone has at one point in their life, maybe.


when their callusness bares its ugly head it is not a nice sight. there were times when i thought my ex-girlfriend was the wicked witch of the east's wand.


I can relate. Men and women can both show a lack of tenderness when it's needed most, if that's any consolation. I think I know what you're going through, I was completely head over heels for a girl once who suddenly switched on the callousness and dumped me - it's very disconcerting, it feels like being tricked almost - like getting lured into some predator's trap with affection and trust, then disposed of.

It's not fun, but there is always a bright side. I learned a lot from that experience, plus when I finally started to emerge from the depression I had been in since the breakup, was when I first discovered BoC. In that transitional period between "everything sucks and I'm sad and want to die" and "well here we are a year or two later and i'm still alive, it seems life goes on, let's take a look back at it all". Those first times I ever started to look back over my past (I was too emotionally disturbed to look at any of it until then) I got that bittersweet, melancholic, tinged with a hint of ire feeling that seemed to resonate so perfectly with MHtRtC.

That's interesting, too, I think. Maybe this isn't the same for everyone, but for me, there are the usual sensations of "it's gone forever, oh no" and "how sweet but how sad", but then there's also a little bitty voice somewhere in the back that pipes up and says "good fucking riddance! i didn't need that shit anyway!" I guess that's a byproduct of the unhappier times of my childhood. Nobody's childhood was all fun and games and super 8 birthday party footage; let's face it, there were times as a child i felt the whole world was against me and that humanity was ugly and cruel. As a geeky little dweeb who picked his nose and cried a lot, I nurtured a reciprocal hatred for people as they showed me more and more of their scorn. I'm just happy I didn't wind up letting it dominate me in the end - but I can never erase it completely from my personality, I guess.


good post. my girlfriend of 3 years recently broke up with me. i felt so cheated. i spent the past 6 months supporting her and her 6 year old brother as her mother was in hospital after suffering from a stroke. we both started university in different places, i became depressed...turned to my gf for the first time, and she wasn't there. that once...when i needed her most. but yeah, on the positive...i'm slowly getting there, i'm almost done on my first album...and i have freedom. but i still miss the old her. fucking relationships...end of ramble! x


you guys are really cool. its so nice to know that there are people out there that can relate. the same sort of thing happened to me, bleak. we both went to college a couple of hours apart, and we just started to drift into different places. as i became more and more involved in music and art, she became more involved with starbucks and shopping. maybe it is for the best that things happened the way they did.

it started when i brought this up to her. i asked her if she felt like things were drifting apart, she said "no i didnt notice" and we said we could work through this. and a few days later i get a call "i was thinking about what you said. i think we should break up"

really? i thought we agreed that we would work it out. she doesnt really want to talk any more from that point on.

either way, im free now, and its a weird feeling to be single for the first time in 4 years. i have been with her since i was 18. but maybe its time i moved on to the next step in my life. but really, thanks guys. its seriously comforting to know that i can come to this message board where people are united simply by the love of a certain band, yet i can come here and talk about something like a breakup and people will have the same experiences to share. you guys are good people.


i still find it amazing how people can change...the worst part of loosing someone is that you feel that you have lost part of yourself. my girlfriend broke up with me three months ago, and yes...i do miss the old her, the girl i loved...before the change. i couldn't accept the new her...she fell into this very typical modern British student lifestyle - go out, get drunk, take pictures, forget what happened, upload pictures to facebook, comment on pictures on facebook, arrange the next night out on facebook...of course, this was far more important than my depression...the way i look at it is that its her loss. i could have easily walked away when her mother fell ill...but i was committed - i loved her. anyways, in time you will become so much stronger as a person. don't let you emotions build up inside of you...keep in good company, write music...write a diary...at the end of the day, these things happen for a reason. i did find myself looking at photos - 'i wish i could go back to then...' this is perfectly natural. this is the ideal time to find the real you. you have all these branches...routes which you can now take. take your time and you will become a much stronger person. x

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Joebot Kill wrote:it started when i brought this up to her. i asked her if she felt like things were drifting apart, she said "no i didnt notice" and we said we could work through this. and a few days later i get a call "i was thinking about what you said. i think we should break up"

really? i thought we agreed that we would work it out. she doesnt really want to talk any more from that point on.


Eesh, it's actually eerie to me how familiar that sounds. With my girlfriend, I expressed some worries that we were growing apart/I hadn't been seeing a lot of her lately, and she assured me that things were better than ever since after any conflict we resolved our relationship grew stronger. A week or two later, all that talk about tenacity and perseverance and optimism flew out the window without a trace.

She "shut off" from me, too - wouldn't talk to me except when she had prepared a rant that I guess she felt she 'owed' me after bottling up her feelings. she had this passive aggressive thing where she would insist that everything was cool, then explode at me as if I had been oppressing her like a tyrant - not that i mean to cultivate the illusion that i was a perfect boyfriend, I mean I have a menagerie of my own faults when it comes to relationships and they can be really burdensome on my significant other, but the point is I don't believe i was guilty of what she was accusing me of.

Maybe that's too much detail, sorry. At any rate, I've become distanced enough from the events to examine her and that relationship as a whole as close to objectively as possible, and I can say with some relief that I'm better off not being with that particular girl.

My best advice is to let go when you feel the yearnings for closeness at their fiercest but don't have any prospective relationships lined up - when you're alone and want to be with someone, the best thing is, I think, to just chill out and focus on yourself and don't obsess over it, you know, try to be content with what you have and count your blessings so to speak. Every time I realize this, within a few weeks I suddenly become aware of a girl in my life who is interested in me - usually one I never would have expected, even. I recently hooked up with my best friend, which is weird, but we'll see where it goes eh?
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Honesty is the key. Talk about it with the girls...

It takes courage, but I think its the right thing to do :wink:

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your so young, dating at your age think about it you only live once why not explain to girl a that you dig her but on the coolest friendship level ever!like shes all that ,but u just have a more " relationship" interest with girl B if shes a close friend then she should understand. let her get hurt that's what being 19 is all about you live and learn you make mistakes but thru that as long as you follow your heart those "mistakes" make your life and who know maybe girl b is who you marry maybe in 3 years after you've been out to a bar doing adult things socializing you meet the one. def date around !! live it up NO regrets follow your heart moment to moment.

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essicaj -_- wrote:your so young, dating at your age think about it you only live once why not explain to girl a that you dig her but on the coolest friendship level ever!like shes all that ,but u just have a more " relationship" interest with girl B if shes a close friend then she should understand. let her get hurt that's what being 19 is all about you live and learn you make mistakes but thru that as long as you follow your heart those "mistakes" make your life and who know maybe girl b is who you marry maybe in 3 years after you've been out to a bar doing adult things socializing you meet the one. def date around !! live it up NO regrets follow your heart moment to moment.


my advice is...do not listen to this woman

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if you dont go for it, you'll keep thinking about in the future and you may end up resenting girl 'a' for it. there are no right choices in these situations.
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youre 19..have a threesome with the two..duh!! gee that was hard..im getting hard just thinking about it..

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